Think big, but let the little things make you happy.

Hey guys. :)

 I actually wrote a post for Christmas but forgot to click "publish post". -_-

2011 is gonna come to an end. Time pass really really fast. 

#thankyou2011 for giving me many awesome memories.

2012 is a day away. And  I hope it's gonna be a better year. 

2011, the year we faced PMR. The year I went crazy with my awesome friends. The year I got to know my friends even closer. The year I got to know who truely cared about me. The year I got my friendship back. This year provided memories that will never be forgotten. The ups, the downs, the tears, the smiles, the happiness, the awful moments, the craziness, the laughter, the cries, everything.

And 2012, we'll be seperating. None of us want this to happen.The 10 of us can't stay in the same class anymore but I bet our hearts are always together. <3

I just hope that I made you smile this year. If I didn't, I hope I could make you laugh next year. I apologize if I made you mad, if I'm the one who started a fight with you, if I said something hurtful, if I snatched your food, if I kicked your ass, anything bad. :/ I'm serious. 

Well. I guess that's all. 

Oh yes, not to be forgotten. I just wanna say a big thank you to all my friends. I'm really glad to have you guys as friends this year. Those who cheered me up, pulled me up when I fell, made me laugh badly until my stomach aches, lent me helping me hand, everything you guys did for me, kamsahamida! <3

*you guys know who you are*

And I hope our friendship will last long and more memories will be created next year-in the future. :)

I'm all ready, 2012. Come on!

It's MBC GAYO DAEJUN! And I'm gonna miss it. 

Live you know? LIVE. D: 

And SHINee's performing in it. Of all 3 concerts, sbs, kbs and mbc, SHINee's only performing on mbc. 

GAHHHHHHHH. WHY LIKE THIS? :'(

Gonna attend a new year's eve party-dinner-gathering tomorrow. #I AM HAPPY

 And that's why I'm gonna miss MBC. D: #I AM SAD

An empty street, an empty house,

A hole inside my heart, 

I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.

Happy new year's eve!

Byebyeee :) 

Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it.

Finally updated my blog after a month, more than a month i guess. :/ 

Sorry guys. It's because I went to Fairyland to get Cosmo here to make my wish (getting straight A's in PMR) come true :D #fairyoddparents And it came true!

I GOT 8A'S. 8A'S. 8A'S! :'D STRAIGHT A'S!

SO HAPPYYYYY! :DDD 

THANK GOD. I GUESS LORD HEARD MY PRAYERS :')

I kept thinking that I'll only get 6A's. I didn't wanna hope much. 

I was really really nervous before getting my results. I bet everyone was. Heart beats like a high speed race. :/ 

And finally, all my hard work paid off. :') Sacrificing 7 Sundays to go for Kancil. 

To those who didn't get straight A's or what they expected, cheer up.

Don't be too sad about it. :)

And I guess I'm kinda good in cheering people up? *shrug* I'll feel good if my cheering do help. :) 

Don't worry that you didn't get an A for English. I bet Teacher Corina will definitely say that you tried you best already. Just cheer up. :)

Totally relieved now. 

And we went to summit today to celebrate? Sherlock Holmes was not bad. Seriously, I nearly fell asleep during the front part but.... it got more interesting after that. :D

Last Christmas I gave you my heart but the very next day, you gave it away. This year to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special. 

You better watch out, you better not shout. You better not cry, I'm telling you why. Santa Claus is coming to town. 

Can you feel Christmas really really near? #3moredays

Still haven't have any plans during Christmas and New year. :( We usually celebrate either Christmas or New year in Melanie's house, almost every year. Unfortunately, the whole family went to overseas and they'll only be back after new year. D: EMO ttm. :( 

Oh well, hope I'll have fun on both the days. *fingerscrossed*

There's always going to be those awkward moments when you walk past someone

 and remember the times you once had.

冬至节快乐!

Byebyeee! :)

Realized that you wasn't there after all.

Opps. Haven't been updating my blog lately again. :/ Sorry folks. 

It's 1 smtg and I should be in my bed, traveling dreamland now but I just can't sleep. :/

In 12 hours time I'm gonna be at @poptheCON's house watching movies with the girls. :D And my bicycle is currently staying in her house, and she's asking me to pay her for my bike-park fees. It's never gonna happen. :P

Finally, you changed your phone. And I'm so jelly of your Galaxy Ace. Can I exchange mine with yours? :P Hahaha. Just joking. And this is why you have the mood to text me? :)

Okay, my birthday is over for like 5 months? And you still insist to buy me a present. Should I be happy or angry? Yes, at first I was the one who wants you to buy me a present, and you promised but it's a long time ago. It's a no need right now. :)

 And you didn't look like you're serious about it, so neither do I.

And should I be glad that you still remember? :/ I keep rejecting and you still insist. And when you finally said "it's okay", I was relief until you said you'll buy me two next year and asked me to decide what I want now. OMG. Why are you so obsessed? :P

This made my mood got better. :D 

Maknae taeminieeee, why you so cute? :3

Minho oppa! <3

Hehehe, I love LeeHom and SHINee. <3 #somethingsyouhavetoknowaboutme :)

Oh yes, I feel like watching 那些年，我们一起追的女孩. :O 

You said I've changed, but the truth is you never really knew me.

Does that mean I never really knew you?

Byebyeee :)

This is the last time to get it right.

Went to school today. :)  #soproud

We're in the dewan, and it's so cold in there. :S

I feel like I kinda left Zhilin out when Aik and Mel came at 8 smtg. Sorryyy.

Helped Pn Sophia copied some notes. And aiktze made us laugh like mad. And we know what Pn Sophia scolds when she's angry. She doesn't says fcuk or some other vulgarity, instead she says this. < click it. P:

HAHAHAHAHA. Okay, actually she scolds "mao". But it's kinda same right? :D

I miss HSM moments. Those times when we're all in this together :)

Gahhhhhhhhhhh. :/

Going to pyramid tomoro with the girls. Ice skating :D Weeeeee.

I can't tweet anymore until tomoro because I want my 2000th tweet to be tweeted tomoro. :D 

I'm weird like that. :3 There's so much things I wanna tweet. :( 

@Melanie_Nsq and @poptheCON I'm sorry for scaring both of you today. I know I shouted super super loud. Kinda similar to the shout in PA 3. HAHAHAHA. 

Sometimes I really don't understand. I don't get you. I'm serious. I feel like there's a wall between us and we can't break through it. And this make us can't get closer. #pathetic I don't know why I feel it that way. Been thinking much these days because I have nothing to do. Geez. I can do... nothing. I can't stop those things from appearing in my mind. This isn't good right? :/ 

STOP.

You choose your games instead of me. So that means I'm not as worthy as your stupid games. Well then, fcuk off! :)

Don't give me hopes and then let me down the next moment,

don't make me special yesterday and then make me feel unwanted today.

Byebyeee :)

I hope I have the chance to make you laugh like the way you make me laugh.

Oppps. Haven't been blogging for like more than a week. :/

Yayyyyy! :D OMG. 

LEE HOM'S COMING TO TOWN ON THE 3RD OF MARCH NEXT YEAR.

AND I AM DEFINITELY GOING since there's free tickets. :D

I'M STILL GOING IF THERE ISN'T. 

Tickets started selling already. OMG. And the tickets are more expensive compared to his concert before. I want the RM 498 oneeee. :( And why is it at Stadium Merdeka? I prefer Stadium Bukit Jalil tho.

I'M STILL GONNA GO. I DON'T CARE WHERE IS IT. HAHAHAH. :D

Leehom's gonna travel 50 countries for his world tour. Now that's called a world tour, freaking FIFTY countries !

#SOHYPER

Ace yesterday. Screw fable. So many things not done because I've been skipping class. And I'm gonna change to weekday class next year. Weeee :)

Dreamt a lot during this whole week. Strange one. Funny one. All kind. HAHAH. But i can't remember them. And I know-I'm sure-I'm glad that I didn't dream of you. :)

Read Avalon High till 3 in the morning for two days continuously. OMG. (Y) It's a nice story tho.

YES. Not to be forgotten. I WATCHED REAL STEEL. :D

IT'S AWESOME TTM. A MUST-WATCH-MOVIE.

ATOM- PEOPLE'S CHAMPION. 

I don't mind watching it again. :3

It's not wrong to be nice to everybody, 

but  learn to be true to only a few,

 so you won't end up being betrayed by someone whom you've trusted.

Good friends are like stars, you don't always see them, but you know they're always there.

I guess this is the only picture of three of us I found. Rumah merah :D Hmmm.. Yes we took one today too. :D But I'm not gonna wait for juyen to upload it to facebook because it's gonna take her "some" time. :P

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY ZIQING AND ZIXUEN. :D

Hahahah. I guess this is the 5th time wishing both of you? I shoooo awesomeee. :P Kay just joking, both of you are the awesome ones. Hope both of you really really enjoyed today. I know the suprise kinda failed but it's full of our thoughts. :)

Isn't the movie awesome? :D Hehee! Acting as the ah ma isn't easy okayyy. :P And both of you better take good care of the card! :)

Both of you have been great friends to me. <3 I never regret knowing you guys. :') 

I thank God for giving me a chance to meet both of you. Having you guys in my life is one of the greatest things. :) I know both of you will always be there when I need one of you or maybe both of you. :D And remember I'll always be there for you guys too. :) I know I could believe and rely on both of you. :)

Thanks for all the laughters, tears, everything. :') Really treasure spending time with you guys. Anddd... Treasure the laughters, the tears and especially the memories. :')

Anyway, you two are the best. Only for today. :P kayy, just kidding. Hope you guys like what we did for you today. :)

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Tuesday 18/10/2011 - A day to remember :)

Everyone gather at my house before heading to the twins. And aiktze was the first. Miracle huh? :P Without their help, things wouldn't be that perfect.

My bedroom now is super SUPER messy. :( And I'm lazy to clean it up. Damnnn. :/ I'll just clean my bed so that I have a place to sleep tonight. Hahaha. Hmm, who's willing to come help me clean my room? I'll belanja him/her roti canai. :P kayyy, just joking. :)

Finished everything and walked to the park at Usj 16. Then, Connie and I went to the twins house to call them out. Yayyyyy! Then suprise them once they reached. And damnn, I forgot to ask her mum for lighter. Run back to her house to get it. #runbabyrun,don'teverlookback

 I looked back to get my damn slipper. :/ Hahah kinda lame right? Damn, my toe nail patah. :( Gahhh.

Stupid headache. :/ Headache, why you no leave me alone? Exhausted, but I just wanna finish this post by today. :)

Went to sri melur after that. And this is the first time everyone of us were there! :D (Y) Thank you cute danbo for belanja-ing. :)

Well, guess I'll end here? Check out connie's, juyen's or ruiqi's profile for photos! :)

You don't need to go far place to find your true friends.

Your true friends are those beside you.

Byebyeee :)

Let's just stop here and remain it this way. No more moving forward.

The sun goes down, the stars come out.

All I count is here and now.

My universe will never be the same.

I'm glad you came.

Went to Aik Tze's house today. Staying at home is really REALLY BORING. :/

Feeling good. :D Australia house. @aiktzeee

The feeling before sleeping is the worst ever.

The feeling when everything just appear in your mind, bothering you. @Melanie_Nsq

Feeling so insecure. And that's why I wanna spend time with friends. I don't wanna be alone. #foreveralone

I mean who likes being alone?

Should I give you a second chance? Should I?

I really don't know. So confused. :S I'm afraid that you won't appreciate it. Wait, you didn't even ask for a second chance. I don't want to fall deeper. I'm afraid that I can't get up and there's no one there to pull me up. Someone said that I should give it a try. I don't think that I have the courage though.

Just forget about it. :D

@Melanie_Nsq, I LOVE YOUUU. <3

Feel so much better after telling you. :') I heart you more that you heart jimjem. Is the name correct? :P HAHAH. And I know I have your support and you'll have mine too. ;)

Hehee! :) Both of us, together. Always. :)

I dunno what's my feeling right now. Everything jumbled all together. Feeling so..... #idunno?

I dunno. I dunno. I dunno. I dunno.

Yiling, don't take it so serious. Don't put it in your heart. Forget about it. Remember?

Don't care much. :)

God answers in 3 ways: he says yes & gives you what you want, he says no & gives you something better, or he says wait & gives you the best. God, is it true?

Stop. It's the best way. No more expectation. And of course no more disappoinment.

I'm sorry. I have to.

Sometimes I feel like we're best friend,

but sometimes I don't.

Do I deserve you and do you deserve me?

Do you trust me and can I trust you?

Can we rely on each other?

#cd

Byebyeee. :)

All you have to do is forget.

PMR IS OVERRRR. :D

And I'm gonna party till I die, till I go crazy. :D

I'm super satisfied for my Sejarah. I got 50/60 and I'm super happy. :D Aik tze and I went mad in facebook chatbox after we found out our result. Nothing in words I can describe my happiness. I got 60+ for both my sejarah trials and now I got 84? :D FUUUU YEAHHHH!

I really really hope that I'll get 8A's. It's my october wish and Lord, I know you'll make my wish come true right? :)

Major headache now. FSKNSDKJFSAI. :(

Shit. There's a bruise on my leg. FSKNSDKJFSAI. :( 

Click this. <3

RT @funnyfacts Dear phone, I'll charge you later. Now STFU before I break you and piss me off some more. :) Yes phone, I'm glad that you can still work when you're really out of battery. And your battery really last long. And also THANKS FOR WAKING ME UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TELLING ME THAT YOU'RE LACK OF BATTERY WHEN I'VE ALREADY PLUGGED YOU INTO THE BATTERY CHARGER.  

We're best friends.

Always remember that when you fall, I'll pick you up.

after i finish laughing. :D

Byebyeee :) Will update smurfing soon. :)

Whatever makes you feel bad, leave it. Whatever makes you smile, keep it.

Shall I say good morning or good night? I slept at 7 am yesterday. O_O And thinking that I would be in school already if it's school days. HAHA.

Went to Serdang for dinner with family and friends. :D Great dinner. (Y)

I think a lot these days. I kept thinking and thinking. And those thinking made me confused. :/ Well, I should stop the thinking. I should not think too much.

I have no idea what made you came to chat with me. And I thought that maybe you're boring, you need someone to entertain you? I can entertain you but if I knew that the reason you came to chat with me was that, it's disappointing.. I'll feel like okay, you're bored in the middle of the night, and you feel like chatting with someone and you saw me on the list and then you came chatting with me. So I'm just some thing that reduces your boredness?

Okay. I know you're not a friend like that. And if you are, SMURF you. :P HEHEHE :P This proofs that I'm thinking too much.

Btw, nice conversation (Y). And you don't have to apologize when you don't need to. :P

I will not put my hopes too high. I don't put my hopes and expectation high because I know it'll hurt more when it came out not what you expected. They say the higher expectation, higher disappoinment which is true. I've tried it before.

 Maybe I have that one in a million chance, but I know it wouldn't make it. I know.

They say in the end, you'll regret for the chances you didn't take.Well, I don't think I'm gonna regret because i know it's impossible. It wouldn't happen. Smurfling, stop thinking about something that wouldn't happen. :)

La la la la la 

Sing the happy song 

La la la la la

Smurf the whole day long. :D 

Oh my smurf. Today is the last smurf day of holiday. I don't smurfing feel like going back to school but I smurfing miss my smurf friends. :( I just hate to wake up smurfing early every morning. Lol, who the smurf likes it? :/

HAHAHAH THIS IS CALL THE...

SMURF FEVER!

Call me SMURFLING peoples, if not I won't smurfing care.

Omg. Yiling, you're too over. Stop smurfing here and there. -_-

Lalalalala, I don't smurfing care. :P

If you can't stand my smurf fever, then byebye :)

 

Having a thousand friends isn't a miracle.

The miracle is to have a friend will stand by you when thousands are against you. :)

Byebyeee :) Off to smurfland :D

Where the smurf am I?

Blogging just like what ahkee asked me to. :P

Watched Final Destination 5 & The Smurfs today with wongkee, sheewen and yanlin.

FD 5 was scary for me. I saw some feedback for FD 5 saying that the movie sucks. Well, it's my first time watching FD. Seriously, I haven't watch the previous ones. :/ Yes, it's disgusting just like what wk said in her blog. And in the end, everyone died. :/ 

And I'm sleeping without turning the lights off again. :D HAHAH.

Currently talking with sheewen on the phone and voice calling with wongkee on msn. :D

And the time now is 6.00 am (Y)

LA LA LA LA LA

SING A HAPPY SONG

LA LA LA LA LA

SMURF THE WHOLE DAY LONG

*copy and paste from wk's blog. hope she don't mind :P*

I'm addicted to the SMURFS. Seriously, no joke. I went mad because of the word "smurf" with sheewen. And she really got fed up with me. I ended up laughing alone on the phone. :(

Sheewen's smurf name: Smurfshee

wongkee's smurf name:  Smurfkee

my smurf name: SMURFLING <3

Hahaha. okay, stop the craziness. -.-

I bought a Smurfy keychain :D And it's so cuteee I'm gonna fainttt.

Go on and try to tear me down

I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper.

Byebyeee :)

I post what I want in my blog.

Look at this diaper. HAHAHAHA. It's so cute and funny.

I LOVE DADDY; I LOVE MUMMY <3

It's my sister's diaper. And I took a picture of it because I find it funny. And she started taking all her diapers out to show them to me because almost every diaper has different patterns or words on it. HAHAHA. :D

p/s: my sister's 9 years old and still wearing diapers. opps :X she'll kill me if she sees this. Who cares? She doesn't even know what's a blog. HAHA.

Gastrick. GASTRICK.

Grrrr.. Been having gastrick like almost everyday. Suck like hell. And I feel like puking. :/ Shit. -_-

Went all the way to Kuala Selangor to have dinner with relatives just now. One hour ride to reach there and guess what. That place was...

SUPER

PACKED.

Went out at 5.30 pm and had my dinner at 8.30pm. Cool huh? -.-

Talking about what we're gonna do after pmr at ace. And keeyew suggested that a whole bunch of us cycle to places like Penang or Pd. Omg. Gila to the max man. :/ It'll take us days to reach there. And we're laughing there imagining we're on our way to those places CYCLING. OMG HAHAHA. And he's going to Singapore with his friends by PLANE after pmr. Rich kia. Jealous much. :/

It's 1.25 am now. Off to dreamland. :D

If you ignore me, I will ignore you.

If you don’t start the conversation, we won’t talk.

 If you don’t put in the effort, why should I?

Byebyeee :)

People and things change in time, but memories remain the same.

 

Her tears rolled down for once.

She cried, she cried it all in once.

She cried till she fell asleep.

Her tears warm her cold heart.

Crying doesn't mean she's weak, it means she had been strong for too long.

Went to connie's house with sheewen to watch horror movies just now. Thanks sheewen for the transport. :) Thank you connie and shee wen for belanja-ing. :D We called for pizza hut delivery. And three of us ordered one regular pizza, garlic bread, 3 bowls of mushroom soup, 3 cans of pepsi, fried prawns and 4 chicken wings. (Y) HAHAHA. :D Connie said that she can't eat in peace while watching horror movie so we watched 蜡笔小新 when we're eating. HAHAH. :D

The two horror movies we watched wasn't that scary after all. Is it because that we've watched a scarier one, "They Wait"? :O We watched a thailand one and a hongkong one. And that thailand horror movie was a waste of time. -_- The hongkong one was kinda scary. :/

They asked me whether I can let this friendship go. Honestly, I can't. It's not easy to let go.This friendship lasted for many years and it meant a lot to me once.

 But now... I don't think so. It's not easy to let go though. There are many memorable moments but it's fading away. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I don't really care about it anymore? Well, I guess she's the same. I once hope that she'll change and tried to talk to her about it but I ended up being the bad guy. It's okay. Well, people change and time doesn't stop for anybody.

We're still friends now but not as close like last time. Let it be. :)

I have my awesome FRIENDS and she has her awesome FRIEND. Okay. This will be last time I'll write about it. END. :)

I know it's kinda emo right? HAHAHA. The post is emo but the person who types it is not. Hehee! :)

Okay, I'll post something funny. :D

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"OMG!! THERE'S A BEE" "STAND STILL. IT WON'T HURT YOU" "FU*K THAT! I AM RUNNING!"

Fine, if you don't think it's funny. :P

You lean on my shoulder and I'll push your head away. I'm a MEANIE. :P HAHAHA. 

Suddenly, I feel so empty.

Feel like there's no one who understands me.

Feel like there's no one I can talk to.

Byebyeee :)

A memorable night.

Last night was Eco's 1st farewell party. IT WAS A BOOOM! :D

Really enjoyed the party. Thanks to the Eco bod members. :D

Went super mad with the girls. All of us went except for Layyee. :( She missed the fun.

There's a weird, nerd guy. He freaked all of us out. :/ And miss wongkee really freaked me out too. She shouted my name out of sudden. At first, I didn't know that the guy was just beside me at the computer table.

And I jumped out from that place. OMG. HAHAH. Scared die me. :/

We watched a horror movie. Some of us agreed that the little boy in the movie kinda looked like Aiktze's little brother, Ah Lun. HAHA. :D And I scared Tze by pressing on her waist. I'm sorry. :P Another one was I put my hand over her neck and she thought I wanted to do something bad to her but actually I just wanted to stuff  the watermelon into her mouth. HAHAHA. :P

 The movie was kinda scary. I shouted a few times. :/ I'm sorry Juyen for shouting beside your ear. :( Aisks.

Stupid Zixuen. She seemed like she's not scared at all. -_- I said that she should be scared and go running around and shouting like a kid. HAHAHA. :P Watching horror movie with her isn't fun because she won't get frighten. Okay, just joking. :P

And connie, she closed her ears with her both hands super super hard. :O

Shee wen even wanted to watch the horror movie again because she missed the ending but connie doesn't allow. HAHAH. :P

I went home the last around 11.30. And I went to shower at 1.30am. I bet all of you were in your dreamland already. HAHAHA. I went to bed with the lights on. :O Okay, I admit that I'm scared. :P

I watch a scary movie, I'm perfectly fine not fine, then I go to bed and remember EVERY SINGLE SCARY MOMENT IN THE MOVIE.

HAHAHA saw this at twitter. (Y)

Live in the present, remember the past, and fear not the future,

 for it doesn't exist and never shall. There is only now.

 

 

Byebyeee :)

You don't live to please others.

Yes, trials were finally over. And finally I can spend some time blogging. Yay :)

Celebrated wongkee's birthday at Bliss yesterday. Ah kee, we apologize for not celebrating your birthday on the actual date due to trials. I hope you understand. :) HAHA i know you will. That surprise kinda fail but it's AWESOME though. :) And that cake.... CHOCOLATE MOOSE. So yuuuuummmmyyyy. :D Ah kee, I don't think you need my present already since you have a big big present already. :P Bet you know what I mean right? :P Hahaha. Okay. I LOVEE YOU <3

There's this girl.

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I hateee her. :P

She made me laughed like a mad cow yesterday. And I knock my head because of it too. Gahhh.. Is it because that my humor is low?

Go view her blog and read her latest post and you'll understand. :)

http://www.teehee-connie.blogspot.com/

See connie, I'm helping you to promote your blog. :P Chehhh just joking.

She's like a mad girl. And I don't get myself as well. It's just a simple topic and I can laugh like hell.

Connie, awwww I know you like to be with me. :) Same here :)

p/s: she laughs more mad than me. and sometimes she's the only one laughing when everybody's not. :P Don't kill me connie. Hehee! :)

Smile although your heart is aching,

smile eventhough it's breaking. :)

Byebyeee :)

I'm not afraid to take this step.

I regret for not knowing you earlier.

I regret for not saying "goodbye" to you.

I regret for being mad at you.

I regret I didn't take a picture with you.

I regret I ignored you.

I regret I didn't have more fun with you.

I regret I didn't talk to you more.

 I saw a quote, never regret anything because at one time it was exactly what you wanted.

And I said bye bye to these regrets.

Ain't I good girl? Being so positive. HAHAHA :D

Oh btw, thanks TZE for listening to my grandma stories. :') Loves. <3

Short post. Study mode on. Off to study. :)

One of the simplest way to stay happy... Just let go of the things that makes you sad. :)

Byebyeee :)

You get to know who your true friends are when you're down.

Today isn't my day. :(

I don't know why I have such big reactions. Seriously, I over-reacted. :(

Escape ain't a solution. Yes, I edited this post again and the lucky ones who viewed my blog yesterday got to read what I actually wrote. I don't have to explain. There's no need for me to explain. The more I explain, the more people think that I'm escaping from it. It feels like I'm escaping when I typed "I don't like him" for several times in the actual post. I mean the post..... gahhh.. hard to explain. :/

I know my feelings towards him.

I don't get why I reacted that way. It's not like the sky is falling down. :(

I thought for a moment. Cooled down myself. Trying to make sure of my feelings.. I'm stupid for reacting that way. Yes, I'm angry of someone but I don't have to react that way. Things would have gone better if I reacted normal. Qing was right. What will outsiders think? Gosh. I have no time to think about this. :/

I don't have the courage to face him. That's why. :/

 And yes I've learnt a lesson. :)

Thank you. Thank you.. :')

That hug was..... words just can't express it. It really made me feel better. :) Thanks for being by my side that moment. Regret for not hugging longer. :P HAHAH. Just joking. :P I'll give you one anytime you want.

I don't feel secure when I lean on your shoulder. :P Joking!

 Hehee! :)

 I don't want to recall back what made us didn't talk to each other for years. :(

Byebyeee :)

Don't promise me if you can't do it.

Yes, I'm blogging again. :)

I got my surat amaran today for being late to school twice. Who cares? -.-

I'm kinda emotionaly today. :/ I'm not good in acting. :( No matter how hard I act, no matter how hard I tried to put a smile on my face, I fail.

Why should I act? Ahh. :/

Melanie, ni hai hao ma? :)

Now, I have to accept the fact. I have no choice. I can't avoid nor hide myself from it. I have to face it. It's already the fact. What can I do when it's already the fact? It will never change. It will never change eventhough I choose not to accept it.

Sometimes, I just need a shoulder to lean on so I'll feel that someone's supporting me, someone's there for me, someone will back me up.

Sometimes, I just want someone to walk beside me so that I won't feel lonely.

Sometimes, I just need someone to listen to me so I'll feel that at least there's someone I can talk to. :)

我一直爱着过去.

Although I don't thank you or express my appreciation in anywhere,

 but I want you to know that I appreciate it very much in my heart :)

Bye byeee :)

Tell me what to do, where do i begin.

Yes! Finally I can spend a little time updating my bloggie. Hehee :)

Went for Chelsea match last Thursday. Thank you Astro for sponsoring us, Seafieldians free tickets for Chelsea match. :D Chelsea 1-0 Malaysia. The results was not what I expected. I bet everyone expected high for Chelsea. I expected that Chelsea would at least get 2 or 3 goals. Arsenal had 4 goals, Liverpool had 6 goals and Chelsea... only 1. :/ Anyway, it was a great experience. :D The mexican wave and the air horn (Y)! :D
Thank you kent way for scaring me while we were walking to Aiktze's car. :/

You'll be happy if someone special to you wants you to be happy.

Anyone can make you happy by doing something special but only someone special can make you happy doing nothing. :)

(Y) :D

Those memories stucked in my head. I'll never forget that memorable trip.

Yes you've forgotten about me but I'll never forget you. :)

Bye byeee :)

Having so much to say.

Hello :)

Last saturday was Larian 1 Murid 1 Sukan. And also my piano assessment. :)

Congrats to Zi Xuen for getting 14th in the marathon. :P Give you a big star okay?

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Heheee. :) Yes, my piano assessment. I was nervous waiting for my turn. My hands kinda shivered. Made a few mistakes when playing. But everything turned out smooth and nice. Not what I expected. HAHA! The so called "judge" said that I'm a very good student. :O Everything's good, is just that I stopped when I made mistakes. *i'm not trying to show off.* And he said that Aiktze was fantastic! Hehee! :)

My effort paid off. :)

Me: broombroom *engine sound*

My dad shook his head and gave me the *WHY ARE YOU EVEN MY CHILD* look.

Hahahahaha! :D I'm CHILDISH! Hehee :)

SOMEONE asked me why I hate him. I don't hate him nor like him. :)

That's all. Kthxbye. :)

I think you cried for her twice within 3 days. I don't really get it why would you cry for her. I thought you're someone who's strong. Or..you've been just acting strong? You look strong but actually you're weak inside. People say that the stronger you look, the weaker you are inside. Hahah.
 I'm kinda worried about you. Do you think that she deserves your tears? Anyways, everything is fine right now. I want you to be happy. I'll always be there when you need me. Cheer up. :) You smile I smile. :)

That awkward moment when you said "what" 3 times and

still have no idea what's the person talking about, so you just agree.

Byebyeee :)

It's the thought that counts.

I'm sorry for the late gratitude. :( Really really sorry. And yes finally I could upload those pictures to my blog. :)

My big and awesome birthday card. :D

It was yanlin's idea. Credits to her, connie and layyee. Thank you guys and whoever that help making it. :P

Thank you everyone for the wishes. :)

Xie xie Zixuen, connie, layyee, yan lin, ziqing and ruiqi. :D

Spot layyee's wish? She wrote happy birthday in hangul! Hehee :)

Thanks Juyen, sheewen and melanie. :)

Thank ou Aiktze and wongkee. :D

Tze, I love your flying unicorn farting rainbow. ♥

Thank you cute danbo! You still owe me tutti frutti! :P

 It's so cute I'm gonna dieee.HAHAHA! :P I'm lovin it.

Thank you again ziqing. She made it herself. Hehee :)

*starts shouting "first danbo in Malaysia, come buy!"*

Chey! Just joking. :)

 Lee Hom loves me. ♥

He always do kay? :P

Thanks tze for buying the cake.:)

Thank you Melanie. :) You know I love you!  ♥

It's just you and me :')

Thank you my darling, Juyen! It's so cute. Hehee :)

Thank you Melanie and Ruiqi!  ♥

I'll be happy and both of you too!

Pinkie promise? ;)

Thank you ruiqi!  ♥ Jay chou! :P

Lee Hom!  ♥ 

Lee Hom's so hot. :P

Thanks a lot ruiqi. :)

He don't ss de. Hehee :)

Guess who gave me this? :P

Thank you la ZIXUEN! Hehee :)

Only one in the whole wide world, she made it herself. ;)

Although it's a little bit cacat-ed (she said it) , but I loveeeee it.  ♥

It's perfect, flawless okay? :)  I'm serious :P

kthxbye :P

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And I wanna thank Connie for that incredible awesome inspire video. :)

Click to the link below to watch the video.

teehee-connie.blogspot.com

I'm kinda afraid to watch that video again, cause...... you know why don't you? :')

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Thank you guys so so so much for giving me an unforgettable fifteen.

You guys are beyond awesome.

I'm really grateful having such awesome friends in my life.

It's the best birthday ever. I can't stop smiling everytime I think about it.

I don't know how to thank you guys. You guys just made my day. And I really appreciate it a lot.

TEARS OF JOY. :') Hehee.

I LOVEEE YOU GUYS!  ♥

Thank you guys for EVERYTHING. :D

Byebyeee. :)