Close your eyes and see where your heart leads you to.

Yay. Haven't been blogging for about 2 months again. (Y)

Life is so fcuked up sometimes. 

Since you know that it's gonna end up like this, an ending that you don't like, you don't want, why do you wanna start it in the first place? 

Fcuk all those rumours out there. And to those who actually believes those rumours, you guys deserve a big punch especially my close ones.

I'm like so pissed now. Knowing so much that i don't know. It's like I've been living in another world lately. 

Idgaf to those rumours because even the biggest "victim" doesn't give a damn anymore. Yes I should't care.

Knowing that someone you relied on lately seems to be unreliable anymore. #sucksttm

Don't know whether to believe or not to what he said, but still gotta beware. 

I'm tired of everything. Everything.

Mood got ruined up by some unnecessary things. (Y)

Nearly got into an arguement. (Y)

That feeling strikes again. (Y) 

And to someone, i know i swear a lot in our conversation. Sorry.

Imagine about things that will never happen in reality when you're in your bed about to sleep. 

I know i'm not the only one who experience this. 

Those imaginations just come up to your mind and you have no idea why are you even imagining about them.

Not only imaginations, feelings, everything just come up to you when you're about to sleep.

What is this? 

And yes, I've been busying myself, tiring myself, so that i'll go off to dreamland right after I jump onto my bed. 

I feel something weird between us. I wanna fix it right but I dont think i have the capability to. 

I'm afraid of broken hearts and tears. 

I'll just leave everything to time. 

I need somebody to listen. There is, somebody who's willing to listen, so be glad yiling. 

Oh, I'm tired of waiting too. 

I guess that's all? 

Penguin is off to finish her homework and sleep. 

Bye guys. :)

I have spent too many days, 

trying to be the pillar of optimism, 

that keeps up the facade, 

even when everything's not okay.

The journey is more important than where you end up.

Things end. But memories last forever.

Hey guys. :)

Haven't been blogging for the past 2 months, I know. 

What I really want now is the rain to stop. I really need a walk outside. 

And for a special girl,I know i'm late but I hope you don't mind. Thanks for being a part in my life. I love you and you know it. Do you feel loved now? <3

The girl on your left, isn't she pretty? :3 She's officially 16 now. She loves Eminem.And FYI, she's mentally dating Eminem. She likes to smile, she likes to bite. :B Dark chocolate is her favourite. And she loves to be happy. Wanna know more? Ask her then. :P 

Saw your status yesterday, and knowing that you wanna forget about me kills me a litle inside. I don't know why. Confused much.

You want, you don't want, you wan't, you don't want. I have no idea what you want now.

All you can say it's your fault. I've heard enough of your apology. I don't need a "sorry", I just want you to make things right. 

And now you're afraid that I'll ignore you. You should have expected that. 

You gave up after calling me twice and whatsapp-ed me a few messages because I ignored all of them.

You said you were scared, you don't have the courage. 

"Coward", this word kinda suits you huh?

I know you didn't mean to hurt me, but then you just did. I told myself before that I'm not gonna tear up because of you. 

Now, all I wanna say is, it's not up to me, it's up to both of us. I'm sorry that I made you waited for so long. I guess if I've gave you a proper answer that time, you would have moved on now. 

Hunger games is one great movie. Peeta and Katniss <3

When is this rain gonna stop? 

I don't wanna walk in the rain. 

I swear to you , 

I'll be there for you, 

This is not a drive by. 

I can never be brave because you make my heart race.

Do you know how much you mean to me?

Hey guys. I haven't been updating my blog since YESTERDAY. I mean since last year. Yesterday's post isn't counted. Guess I've been missing a lot huh? 

2012, form 4's life is tough. I wanna go back to 2011. :(

Can you imagine, it's just the start of the year and in just a wink, chinese new year is over.

Time pass really fast.

Had loads of fun during cny. It was great to see my cousin bro back from Sabah. :)

Cny dinners and parties!

Pictures show the fun. 

cny party at connie's house.

okayy. I have no idea who's middle finger is that. o.o

firecrackers. :D

Pavillion's cny decorations. 

Bear bear in pavillion.

Thailand.

Lu...... *forgotten*

KOREA BABE <3

Fuyohhh. 

Okay, spot those shisha tubes? Many people were shisha-ing at that street i walked by near pavillion. And those shisha smells like some kind of fruits. And dad asked if i wanna try. :O

拜天公

my neighbour did them. (Y)

firecrackers. 

THE LAST DINNER FOR CNY.

roasted pig. 

this fella. yea his cute, his the one who scratches me, puts saliva on both my legs, and wipe his 鼻涕 on my hand. T___T 

Baby baby baby :3

ZIQING, ZIXUEN! BETTER LOOK HERE.

JUST WANNA WISH YOU GUYS ALL THE BEST AND GOOD LUCK FOR MSSD. 

JIA YOU AND DAPAO THEM! (Y) <3

I hate hearing something that absolutely kills you inside

and having to act like you don't care.

That's all.

Byeee :)

For someone special.

HI.

I have to go to tuition.

BYE.

someone been complaining about my dead blog. And just a short, really really short one to satisfy her. <3 

For you melanie :P

Think big, but let the little things make you happy.

Hey guys. :)

 I actually wrote a post for Christmas but forgot to click "publish post". -_-

2011 is gonna come to an end. Time pass really really fast. 

#thankyou2011 for giving me many awesome memories.

2012 is a day away. And  I hope it's gonna be a better year. 

2011, the year we faced PMR. The year I went crazy with my awesome friends. The year I got to know my friends even closer. The year I got to know who truely cared about me. The year I got my friendship back. This year provided memories that will never be forgotten. The ups, the downs, the tears, the smiles, the happiness, the awful moments, the craziness, the laughter, the cries, everything.

And 2012, we'll be seperating. None of us want this to happen.The 10 of us can't stay in the same class anymore but I bet our hearts are always together. <3

I just hope that I made you smile this year. If I didn't, I hope I could make you laugh next year. I apologize if I made you mad, if I'm the one who started a fight with you, if I said something hurtful, if I snatched your food, if I kicked your ass, anything bad. :/ I'm serious. 

Well. I guess that's all. 

Oh yes, not to be forgotten. I just wanna say a big thank you to all my friends. I'm really glad to have you guys as friends this year. Those who cheered me up, pulled me up when I fell, made me laugh badly until my stomach aches, lent me helping me hand, everything you guys did for me, kamsahamida! <3

*you guys know who you are*

And I hope our friendship will last long and more memories will be created next year-in the future. :)

I'm all ready, 2012. Come on!

It's MBC GAYO DAEJUN! And I'm gonna miss it. 

Live you know? LIVE. D: 

And SHINee's performing in it. Of all 3 concerts, sbs, kbs and mbc, SHINee's only performing on mbc. 

GAHHHHHHHH. WHY LIKE THIS? :'(

Gonna attend a new year's eve party-dinner-gathering tomorrow. #I AM HAPPY

 And that's why I'm gonna miss MBC. D: #I AM SAD

An empty street, an empty house,

A hole inside my heart, 

I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.

Happy new year's eve!

Byebyeee :) 

Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it.

Finally updated my blog after a month, more than a month i guess. :/ 

Sorry guys. It's because I went to Fairyland to get Cosmo here to make my wish (getting straight A's in PMR) come true :D #fairyoddparents And it came true!

I GOT 8A'S. 8A'S. 8A'S! :'D STRAIGHT A'S!

SO HAPPYYYYY! :DDD 

THANK GOD. I GUESS LORD HEARD MY PRAYERS :')

I kept thinking that I'll only get 6A's. I didn't wanna hope much. 

I was really really nervous before getting my results. I bet everyone was. Heart beats like a high speed race. :/ 

And finally, all my hard work paid off. :') Sacrificing 7 Sundays to go for Kancil. 

To those who didn't get straight A's or what they expected, cheer up.

Don't be too sad about it. :)

And I guess I'm kinda good in cheering people up? *shrug* I'll feel good if my cheering do help. :) 

Don't worry that you didn't get an A for English. I bet Teacher Corina will definitely say that you tried you best already. Just cheer up. :)

Totally relieved now. 

And we went to summit today to celebrate? Sherlock Holmes was not bad. Seriously, I nearly fell asleep during the front part but.... it got more interesting after that. :D

Last Christmas I gave you my heart but the very next day, you gave it away. This year to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special. 

You better watch out, you better not shout. You better not cry, I'm telling you why. Santa Claus is coming to town. 

Can you feel Christmas really really near? #3moredays

Still haven't have any plans during Christmas and New year. :( We usually celebrate either Christmas or New year in Melanie's house, almost every year. Unfortunately, the whole family went to overseas and they'll only be back after new year. D: EMO ttm. :( 

Oh well, hope I'll have fun on both the days. *fingerscrossed*

There's always going to be those awkward moments when you walk past someone

 and remember the times you once had.

冬至节快乐!

Byebyeee! :)